ABOUT ME

Name: Yuzhou
(Some may call me Nyx, Karma or Vin)
Pronouns: Flip a coin and let fate decide :b

I struggle with communication and making friends. Often times I prefer not to have a conversation.I have BPD, autism, social anxiety and I often age regress. Please understand these things before making assumptions.My typing style may change between casual, "robotic" and childish. This is due to my mental health/neurodivergency. Please be patient with me. I am still learning how to communicate appropriately.Click the buttons below to learn more about how BDP and age regression may affect my behaviour:

INTERESTS:

Art by Hary Istiyoso

  • Music

  • Drawing

  • Story writing

  • Cats

  • Robots (Currently obsessed with Transformers)

  • Action scenes in fiction

ABOUT BDP

BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) is a lot of things, and I don't think I'll be able to explain all of its complexities here. I'll just be listing down the few things that you need to know. I am getting help to manage my issues better.I have "quiet" BPD, so many things I experience is internalised rather than expressed aloud.It's a personality disorder. It's going to affect how I behave, perceive and respond to everything. I struggle with my identity and don't exactly have a "sense of self," so as a result I act differently at different times.
If the way I speak, type, or act changes, this is why. I might speak casually one moment, then formally the next. I may speak childishly with too much energy, then speak blunt and dry without any enthusiasm. That is simply who I am, rather than the fault of whoever I may be speaking with.
Often times you'll probably find me behaving childishly, which may correlate to my age regression. Age regression is explained in the other section of this carrd.I also experience emotional dysregulation. I feel emotions to the extreme, often times far more intensely than the situation actually is. I've been described as "too sensitive" or "too emotional" as a result of this. Again, with quiet BPD, I tend to internalise how I feel, but it does hurt when it gets too much.
Ironically, I also have moments of extreme apathy. This apathy is a result of boredom or emptiness, or a result of me supressing my emotions. You can expect me to type formally or "robotically" in these moments.Again, BPD is a lot of things. You're not obligated to do intensive research, just be mindful that what I've written here does not cover everything. I've just typed down the aspects I think affect me the most socially.TL;DR:
- I struggle to regulate my emotions (no I will not suddenly snap at you and be an ass)
- I have identity issues
- My personality might change drastically

ABOUT AGE REGRESSION

Art by toricoriot on Instagram :]

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HaiThis me when age regressCan still talk, just little strange and act like child but it's okeDon't need anything when like this, just be nice is all and everything oke!

Why Age Regress?Age regression is coping mechanism. To put simple, had trauma and bad childhood. Now I grow up but brain have problem, so brain regress to child. I cannot control, is involuntary.Please do not confuse age regression with that ageplay sex kink stuff! Is not that so do not treat me like that.My Behaviour:Obviously become like child.Might also become talk less and talk more with picture, like angry cat picture, happy cat picture, dizzy cat picture... I have many cat picture.Like talk about plushie and imagination.Like to play pretend, have tea party with plushies or pretend I destroy world. Stuff like that.Voice also become softer, or sometime I stop talk at all and just make sound. Also might say very random thing at random time. Ye.Regression Triggers:- Tired
- Stress
- Anxious
- See cute thing (like plushies)Sometime it happen on it own, no trigger. It be like that.Yeh! Das it.